[ She rubs a hand over her eye, sighing heavily through her nose. ]

I'm not sure making him apologize is worth it? God, that's awful. [ Jane shakes her head, and there's something bitter and reluctant at once about the motion. ] Like -- he should be sorry, and it shouldn't be okay with me that someone so important to me was--

But I know trying will just get his hackles up, and... god, I don't even know how long I've been gone, but I know that I'm sick of all the fights we've ever had.

[ Her shoulders slump, and she stares sadly at her feet. ]

God. What a mess. Forgive him for something he doesn't deserve to be forgiven for, or hold against him something he won't forgive me for holding against him?